| September 7, 2031 |
[January 14th | 2010] |
[Private to Self]
Everyone that sees me keeps asking what's wrong. I knew that I wasn't good at hiding my feelings when I'm upset, but I guess I didn't really know how obvious it really was. I know that this is stupid, and that I shouldn't care and I should just be happy, but I don't know...when I got back yesterday, I was really happy, but I'm not anymore. After Lily obviously didn't like it...it was somehow less beautiful. I know she said that she liked it, but I think she was just trying to be nice. She wasn't acting like she always does when she likes something. And the fact that she wouldn't just say what she really thought bugs me too.
I know everyone else that knows about it liked it, but I can't stop dwelling on this. Just about every time I think about it, it makes me want to cry. And I can't go back and change anything. If I could, I'd probably just go back and get the tattoo on my shoulder...or maybe not get one at all. I look down at my wrist and right there it says "No Regrets" but I feel like a hypocrite now, because I'm regretting this...I haven't felt this insecure in a really long time. Not even at the photo shoot.
I saw Angel earlier, as scheduled, and she didn't even say hi, she just immediately asked me what was wrong and gave me a hug. It was slightly humiliating, but I guess I really look that...well, she used the word devastated. I can't let Leah see me...she'd either want to kill someone for putting this look on my face or think I was weak to let it get to me like this. I don't want to be alone...but I don't want anyone to see me like this either...and I don't want to cry, but I can't help myself.
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[Amer
[Amergin]
I'm sorry I
You shouldn't
Sorry I've been wasting your time...
[Hunter]
I spoke with Sammy. He can get you in on Wednesday afternoon if you're interested.
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To my Listeners: Afternoons with Avish and Angel will be just Afternoons with Angel for the next few days. She's going to have some wonderful guests on the show, so be sure to tune in. I will be back soon. Happy listening, and much love to you all.
~Avish
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| September 6, 2031 |
[January 10th | 2010] |
[Merg]
I survived my day of excitement! It was kind of unexpected, but my sister went with me and...well, we went a little crazy, but I'm not disappointed!
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[Lily]
So...you know how I said I wasn't getting a tramp stamp? I lied...I didn't mean to! Just...Leah talked me into it. But it's really pretty! I'm happy with it.
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( 2030 Girls )
[Leah]
I had fun today!
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Congrats to Kenmare and to Puddlemere! Despite the rain, it's been the perfect day, I think.
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| August 24, 2031 |
[December 17th | 2009] |
[Private to Leah and girlfriends]
OH BLOODY MERLIN! MY SURPRISE WAS ALIVE! HUMAN! NOT JUST ANY HUMAN! IT WAS AMERGIN! AND I WAS IN A POOL…AND HE WAS...he was…I think I’m dead...
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[Merg]
Um…thank you…for helping put me at ease today…even when Linus was yelling at us. I think it would have been worse without you.
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[Private]
My heart feels funny…
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| August 18, 2031 |
[December 7th | 2009] |
[Private to Leah and her girl-friends in her year.]
They want to take my picture and smear it over all of bloody England. I said I would rather not, but I'm afraid of offending them or something. I'm just really much more comfortable not being recognized by my face. I'm on radio for a reason. I don't want people to look at me. But they want to promote the show and put up this awful, gaudy posters of me...like...everywhere. I saw the list. It's insane. I don't want to be on park benches or billboards or the side of the knight bus for crying out loud! Why would anyone want to look at me anyway? It's not like they see me when my show is on. They just hear my voice. That's how it should be. I'm not even photogenic.
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[Private to self]
Oh Merlin...I am so pathetic...
I almost lost it on the show today. After they told me they wanted to do the photo shoot, and then someone mentioned him. I need to get it together...
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The Quidditch rumors seem to have overshadowed a very important bit of information: Rising Phoenix was listed on the Top Bands today! CONGRATS LILY AND HUGO!
Also, does anyone want to enlighten me on why anyone would want the picture of someone who is supposed to be the "voice", not the "face", of something? I don't want to be on posters
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